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What a really disappointed day for me today… Sometime I feel fed up running research for my master. Yes, that is my choice to do research for my master instead of doing coursework because I really feel boring to attend class and listen for the lecture. Ok, back to the story, I want to do my master research regarding to the content management system, but lot of bridle arose by my supervisor until I’ve decide to change the topic into something else. Although the CMS is really my favorite topic, I intended to change my topic because the supervisor advises me to do so. Then I start to collect all data and article regarding to my new topic that is in scope of characteristic of good university website. I spent several weeks to read on all articles that are related and I came out with the new research model. Again, my supervisor reject the model and I feel really disappointed not because he reject my topic, but he said to me that he will change me to another supervisor because he is really busy person. Why I feel really disappointed? Ok, should one academician that holds a PhD title say like that to me? Is he angry with me because I always consult with him regarding to my project? Hmm… I think he should not say that to me is it…Ok, never mind and I say to him, ok, if that the best way, then I accept. Change the supervisor for me. Then he really looks angry with me because maybe I was like challenge him although I was not purposely to do that. Then he asked me study on accessibility and usability of education website. Pheww…ok, I accept even though it really not in my interest. Then for 3 weeks I struggle on that topic, doing some article reading, reviewing article, collecting data, analyze article, study bout the issues. Huh, really hard job ya know, and then today I met with him again. I passed the model to him. Again, he reject my model and argue with me the variable in the model. Hey, come on, before this he said some variable is correct in my model. But now everything went wrong? Ok, I accepted. Maybe I need to learn more but when he told my friend “jangan macam dia ni, malas!” (“Don’t be like him, lazy!”) I feel really angry and what the point he says like that to me???? I’m I too lazy because reading lot of article, spend my time to do search for related article, printing article, study on the issues and too many effort that I put to the topic??? That called as LAZY! Wow…u the first man that called me as lazy person…I really disappointed because he’s suppose not to talk like that. Come on, he the academic person, the professional person, PhD holder. Come on, wont you study how to communicate? Haiyaa…then I argue with him regarding to the topic. Then he very mad at me and he really don’t allow me to explain anything. He always keeps talking and I no chance to talk. Then he said he has work to do, so please go out. Ok, fine… That the story for my life experience today…what I really frustrated is why I can’t have chance to explain anything and he keep blaming me. I know he has the PhD but not mean that PhD, you know everything is it…I like several people that have really open minded and know how to communicate well. Well, sometimes we need to know other, not force other to follow only…Maybe this situation I can accept if I was doing my diploma. But now I do my master and yeah, I’m 24 years old. Maybe the way to treat me like that is not really appropriate for me anymore. Come on people, show some respect to others and other will respect you.
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